Mayday

Guess what? It is raining right now and I don't feel good...
Speaker is sounding Because of You by Kelly Clarkson, it makes me feel even more moody

Every time I'm asking myself whether am I ready? I can"t make sure
I don't know what I want.
Everything seems not true and I don't wish to make a decision just to satisfy the "temporarily" feeling
I hate the feeling of regret.

I found people don't get the purpose of what am I doing and it did cost me disappointment
I expect you to understand but in fact you don't.

I don't expect you to pay me back but at least treat me in a better way please.
One last question, what is LOVE?
I don't get it in the current situation.